I am in a bit of a holding pattern at the moment with my D/s relationships. I ended my relationship with my ferret sub a while back. I think that, despite having chemistry and sharing some interests, we were not well matched for a relationship. One problem area in particular was the degree of D/s we are each looking for. I am looking for a sub to train to become a 24/7 slave while I think she was looking for something much more casual as far as power exchange goes.
So for now I am enjoying the free time that being completely single makes possible and am trying to get as many of the loose ends in my life tied up before I start seriously looking for new sub candidates.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Sunday, July 1, 2007
My Fantasy
Since I realized and accepted my Dominant side, I have had a recurring fantasy. The fantasy involves owning a big enough house and land to be mostly self-supporting (food, energy, and work/entertainment) for a poly family. In this fantasy, I would own two female slaves and a male slave. Since I don't have sexual feelings for men, the female slaves would be service and sex slaves, while the male would be service only. I would of course still control his access to sexual satisfaction. Perhaps he would have an unowned (or owned) live-in partner? Or maybe I would just allow him to meet outside partners as I see fit. This description sounds very mechanical, but in my fantasy we would all be very close to one another and love each other and what we each bring to the 'family'.
Ok, so that is the fantasy. Back to reality now. I have never been involved with any kind of poly relationship. I have always felt jealous about the idea of sharing those I have been involved with in the past, whether vanilla or D/s and have only been in monogamous relationships so far. But I can say that I have had love in my heart for more than one person at the same time...I just never acted on it. I am nearly done reading The Ethical Slut and so far have found it helpful in gaining new perspectives on the variety of relationships and the nature of jealousy. It is a good starting point for those, like me, who are new to non-monogamous relationships. I also started a thread over on CollarMe on this subject to get feedback from people more experienced with poly.
I am still unsure if this fantasy is something that will become reality for me and even if it does, I imagine it will take many years before everything is in place for it to really work. For now my focus is on developing a strong Master/slave relationship with one person. Of course she will know about this fantasy of mine up front and that I may make it real.
Ok, so that is the fantasy. Back to reality now. I have never been involved with any kind of poly relationship. I have always felt jealous about the idea of sharing those I have been involved with in the past, whether vanilla or D/s and have only been in monogamous relationships so far. But I can say that I have had love in my heart for more than one person at the same time...I just never acted on it. I am nearly done reading The Ethical Slut and so far have found it helpful in gaining new perspectives on the variety of relationships and the nature of jealousy. It is a good starting point for those, like me, who are new to non-monogamous relationships. I also started a thread over on CollarMe on this subject to get feedback from people more experienced with poly.
I am still unsure if this fantasy is something that will become reality for me and even if it does, I imagine it will take many years before everything is in place for it to really work. For now my focus is on developing a strong Master/slave relationship with one person. Of course she will know about this fantasy of mine up front and that I may make it real.
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